Saturday, June 21, 2008

Do Not Read Unless You Don't Mind Angst

Okay, this is how it is. I know I'm gay. I'm okay with that. But...it makes me think. Could this just bean offset of my quest to be diffrent? Seriously, because with the ammount of hate and shit lesbians get, it's not a fun thing. I mean, I try sooooo damn hard to be nonconformist, and very few people are a 5 out of 6 on the Kinsley scale that it would make me diffrent. But still and yet, the idea of even holding hands with a guy freaks me out mucho. Is this who I am as a person? Or is this a side effect of my rewiring brain? I didn't really "get it"till puberty hit...don't most ppl know they're diffrent from when they're bitty? And I'm not butch at all. I know that's just a streyotype...but in truth I like geeky girls. ARE there any bookish geeky utterly insane Sapphists out there? Am I alone? And will this post humiliate me in ten years when I have a husband and kids and think "Oh I was such a screwed up child!" I doubt I WILL ever even date another guy..but with the new hormone therapy that's emerging, mabye the government will FORCE the GLBs to change. Scary shit.

My computer hates me at the moment, so email is minimal. sooooo sorry for not responding sooner!!! :( :( :(

IaP is getting more complex...choose if you want Trace, Mild, Moderate or Severe mutation! The bigger degree of mutation, the bigger the advantage...and the price!!!

3 comments:

Ms. Smiley Face said...

Severe! Ha ha ha...

Ladybug Girl said...

Too late Leah....... Tizri, most people don't know they're GLorB till puberty or even after puberty. Honestly, theres no need to flip about this. If it is just a phase, it's no weirder than some of Leahs..... no offense meant Leah..... And you can look back on this time of your life and not be embarassed cause we all have our stupid phases.

Ladybug Girl said...

Btw, I choose mild to moderate mutation. :)