Andrea/Hannah

Yes, I know. I post a lot about my best friend. I just miss Hannah, you know? It's like I'm grieving someone who hasn't died yet. I know, I dont blame her and all for being Emo and such, but I dont...seem to get along to well with emos, and I'm worried I'll lose her to the ever-growing crowd of depressed teens. The old Hannah was predictable. Her clothes were of the punk style, she always wore a hat, and as long as I didnt push the people thing, she would always be at hand whenever I just needed to vent for a while. We would spend hours talking with her boyfriend on speakerphone. (I was the one who hooked them uup in the first place, I get the credit!) We liked the same shows, the same videogames.
This new Andrea person is NOT the Hannah I knew, I can tell you that much. She's just diffrent, somehow. I'm not sure how this will work out. It's scary.

No Matter How You Try

You will never be more ego-crushing than this photo:

I love potterrific!

here is an example of their genius!
The URL: http://www.closet-space.com/comics/fancomics/simplypotterific/sp012.htm

One of my fav. Comics:

Oh, Shit.

Oh. My. Freaking. God.
My best friend in the entire world has changed her name to Andrea and gone goth.
And. Oh. My. God.
She is, by far, the hottest girl I have ever seen in my whole life. EVER.
Shit! Dammit, Andy, you're so irresistable!

Well, anywho, some news on the Benji Front- his SIB (social ineptetute bubble) has a HOLE in it!! YAY!!! Somehow, I was supposed to DO something about this, because he said (in our second firedrill during 4th period) that it had closed up. He says stuff in leaking in his bubble. What stuff, however, I do not know. He described it as "junk mail". Ew, that sounded dirty. :P Weeeeeell, I guess Bneji/Aggg now has stuff in his bubble that he does not want there. Poo to him. It's his buisness- let him bitch and moan about it, but I dont care.


Okay, fine. I do care.
God, why is it that one of my long-term crushes is staright, and the other is a geek who has had like NO HORMONES penetrate his bubble? This sucks.

Oh yea, his bubble keeps science+math in, social-ness OUT.

I almost finished with my painting of Elena (my cousin) and Marcus (her son!). I just need to add some texture to his blanket and I'm golden.

I'm way into Placebo now (thxs Elena). I really like Special K and Pure Morning. Also like Running Up That Hill and The Bitter End.

My teacher Ms. Ares has melanoma. It's now in her lungs and bones and crud like that. She has a 50% of going back into remission, and a 6% of being cured. Also, a 44% of death. My heart and physcic energy goes out to you, hon!

I'm trying to think of a name for my Drow DND char. Mabye Xune. I donno.
Kinaria? Nah...

Oops!

I accidentaly screwed up the comic. Here's the Web Page if u wanna read it proper-like:

http://xkcd.net/311/

Serenity IS The Meaning Of Life

No, seriously. I'm gonna watch the new Terminator soley to see Summer Glau again. I really don't care about much else, if it has Kaylee, Mal, River, Simmon, Wash, ANYONE from Firefly in it, I'm there. And I know what Fox would like to see:















































































































It should also have some sex scenes of Kaylee+Simon so that Fox buys it. Mabye THEN they'll bring Firefly back.


Shiny, capt'n Tight-Pants!

Everything I Touch

I definitely either A) curse or B) turn emo.
I'm going to the mall tomorrow (to hot topic)
I've bought black nil polish and purple hair dye.
WTF

Words

I wish that I could hide in a giant, swirling mass of words. Like a coccoon or something. I COVERED my whole left arm& hand in all my favortie names, friends, lyrics.

Which Sucks, BTW

Here I am, ranting about my life and being about as Emo as I'll ever be w/o freaking out the whole school (everyone wants the happy, upitty Tizri. Whoo-Fuckin-Hoo.). Sure, I find a couple of things decdent about myself (my ability to write...er...) and then I'm defeated at that too. fictionalexsist.blogspot.com. My best friend's blog. And she is a better writer/drawer/overal person than me. Her relatives are famous, her life rocks, she's got the style I've been DREAMING of since I wanted fashion, she's tall, thin, GORGEOUS, wears glasses (don't ask me why, I've always wanted too) and has hot guys chasing after her pretty much every time she steps out of the house.

I'm short, fat, pretty crapping at pretty much everything, have acne and a plain face with permanent dark circles (lack of sleep) and out of two BF's/Gf's I've EVER had, the longest lasting one was 2 weeks. And he thinks I'm ugly. No guy has EVER flirted with me, no matter how much I brag (Oh yea, did I mention I lie w/o wanting too, as well?)

I'm failing my best class. And all my "friends" get all pissed at me when I' not perpetual pumped on Prozac.
"What's wrong, Tizri?"
"Smile, Tizri!"
"Don't be sad/emo/depressing, Tizri!"
Translation= we met you as a hyperactive little kid, waiting to grow up. Stay that way. Forever.

God dammit, if I can't even be honest with my friends, if I can't even tell them that I like girls, then WHY THE HELL are they my friends?!?!

And the ONLY friend I've ever been TRULY honest with is pretty much better at everything, luckier, prettier, and all around awesome-er. Best music, best TV shows, best games, best everyhting!

God, if she dumped me, I'd kill myself, seeing as though all I have left is the guilt I would expirience if I made her sad.

I hope ur reading this. I hope you all freaking are.

Obsessions

Yea, still obsessing about mi weight, but not nearly as much. I ate SO MUCH today, though. I'm going to a funeral tomorrow, so I'll use my sadness as an excuse not to eat anything and have an extra-long workout.

First Post In A While

I was on vaca, and my mom broke her foot, so I havent been online all that much lately.


Anywho, onto what I wanted to say.
I had a girlfriend!!!-for like all of 24 hrs. It really sucked, because I'd been crushing on her for like a yr and then we get together, and suddenly, she says "I'm not ready for a girlfriend". I mean, I respect that and all, but couldnt she have told me that AT the mall instead of being all girlfriend-y and shit?!?!? God, I'm sorry if you're reading this, Bepe, I'm just a little pissed off at the moment. I still like you and all, and I'm still your friend, no worries!

Oh, and I saw a sence at the airport today that exactly mimicks how I feel.

So, these two very skinny, very attracticve people walk by, handing in their girlfriend/boyfriend's butt pocket, eating frozen yogurt from TCBY. A very overweight girl in an attractive shirt is trailing behind them, definitely a part of their group, but not IN it. They all sit down, ad while the two lovers are absorbed in eachother, the third girl is trying to hold a conversation, to no avail. She gives up and starts messing with the games on her cell phone.

I have the weirdest feeling that I will be that third girl. Taging along, getting in the way, a forced cheerfulness about me, while all my friends go on to be happy. God.


About Justin Timberlake- his house is FUCKING HUGE. And he likes my cloak. 'Nuf said. Mabye I'll say more later, but right now I need to wallow.

And for those of you who say I shouldn't wallow, think of it this way: You've been want ice cream SO BAD for a long time, then you get a cone (YAY) but after one lick you drop the whole thing. You'd be pissed and wallow too, right? Now leave me alone.

JUSTING FUCKING TIMBERLAKE

Is who I'm a gonna meeetttt!!!!!
HOLY SHIT!!!!!!







LOLz, sry 'bout that. I'm not even a fan of his! It's just, well, he's a celbrity!
Anyways- more updates soon!! I love you all! (Myslef, mostly)
And a big shout-out to Mouse and Ginny!